"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity."
Edgar Allan Poe...

I am a former police officer, now physically disabled and retired. My gravestone will probably be inscribed, to signify my rank as a Chief of Police. For many years, I was also working outdoors with trees and firewood.

I have been writing and editing my Bio for quite a long time. I think that it is nearly finished now.

Over the last 6 months especially, more than one Doctor has told me that I am in trouble with my health. I have closed my initial works which included managing 120 Thousand memorials on this website. I share this account with my wife, Cathy Rudat. My life is quiet now. We live our life without interruptions. It's a Beautiful Thing.

My Type 2 Diabetes diagnosis happened approximately 14 years ago. I remember the phone call from my Doctor and I was thinking that this was No Big Deal. Boy was I wrong bc Diabetes is a killer. I know that now. During the last 6 months, my Doctor's have added cancer and also failing eyesight problems. The eyesight issues are related to the Diabetes.

I Accept my Doctors at their word and I was always one to Embrace Death. I am Disconnected from society so this is not going to be a difficult thing, for me. I have already eliminated most people from my life. That is also a Beautiful Thing.

One of my childhood friends just died and that bothered me. I created a memorial for him. I had previously created a memorial for his brother and their Mom And Dad.

Some of the interests during my life...they included deer hunting and the paranormal. The sport was really good to me. The day came however, when I decided to take only my camera into the woods. I was fine with that. It was the beginning of my transition into this last phase of my life.

With regard to the paranormal... I know what I have seen and heard. This is something that has been with me for a long time. I have an awareness to some types of things. There are things out there that we don't know about and there are things out there that we don't want to know about. Some of the cryptids such as Dogman...there is something to it.

I must add that on more than one occasion, I have experienced some things that I really can't explain. Several things were going on around me at the same time. I probably should have been scared but I was also trying to stay in the moment and figure out What Was Happening. There is a difference between Ghosts and Spirits. Some of them are Ancient.

These writings are the basis for my Find a Grave memorial. I will Never have an Obituary in any newspaper. I think that they are mostly all the same. They list the person's job and that he or she was Beloved. Please. Once in awhile, those obituaries are lengthy and beautiful. They don't tell everything, such as the mother was dark and abusive.

I have been involved with geneology, although I have been somewhat distracted with the business of dying and I am taking a break.

Please visit the the memorial for my good friend and police partner Sergeant Tim Geritz (# 143057630.) We saw some stuff together. I'm not kidding about that.

I know about Blood and Killing and Death.
It was my Business.
I know about Karma.

When I was a young man, with some chaos going on in my life, I saw the narcissism in my dysfunctional family/and Others. Their sociopathic and psychopathic behaviors prepared me to do what I needed to do, even to this day.

My father once told me that he said Goodbye to his brother at age 16. I never forgot that and I Also said Goodbye to my brother at age 16. That's how things go.

It wouldn't be right if I didn't acknowledge all of the women who came into my life, after my divorce. I will never forget them.

Please...Be Humble and Be Kind.
For those who are not, Here are The Warnings...

Some people believe that there is something out there called Santería. It can really disrupt/change the life of people who have treated others with misery and contempt. It can take something or someone from you. A person's profession or money doesn't matter. It won't save you. The lady surgeon is no different than the music teacher. The surgeon learned about Karma. Some say that it was about how she treated other people. Others believe that the cuban priest performed a ritual. Screaming in the Night. Some people call this Supernatural Justice.

The original Flatliners film, and The Serpent and The Rainbow... they are some examples about the importance of treating people Right and with Respect. Bad things will otherwise happen.

There are some people on this Earth who are dangerous. And then there are those Idiots who (want-to-be) But they can't shoot etc. I once saw someone track a deer backwards and then denied it. He also got smacked in the eye with the rifle scope. He had to live with the black ring around his eye. I never allowed him to hunt with me after that. He was unable to practice gun safety.

I have known some dangerous men.
It was my business.

My Life...

I have lived my life as A Rebel and A Defender of The Faith. When you know that you are right...you stand your ground and Never back down. I am proud to have adjusted some attitudes during my life. I have always detested those who are manipulative. People always knew where they stood with me, And I Fear No Man.

Moving On...

I am now a very spiritual person. I was brought up in the Protestant church. My parents forced it upon us. I took all of the necessary instruction and then became a confirmed member of the church. The end result of that, I Chose To Leave.

Martin Luther and I would have been good Drinking Buddies however. I have been tempted to Nail my own Theses on the bright Red Doors. I made sure that my daughter was Baptized as an Infant, just as I was.

I pray directly to Jesus now.

My personal relationship with Jesus Christ was already in place, long before my diagnosis. I glorify Jesus both in Good times and also when things are Bad. I know where I have been and I know where I am going. I can't wait to go. Don't look for me bc I have always been A Loner. It's about the solitude. My belief is that what awaits me... it's described in the 23rd Psalm. Its a feeling of Peace. I am excited about Leaving this Earth. I will do whatever it is, that Jesus permits or what He wants me to do. I thank Him every day for my life and what He did for me.

I have really tried to mellow out. It wasn't easy bc of the actions of others. I compare those actions to things such as Mercy and Forgiveness. I struggle with that. It's okay because I am here on this Earth to learn specific lessons. It's for the progression of my soul. I think about my Faith in Jesus and Salvation.

One of the last things that my Dad told me to do, was To Repent. I took his advice and I Repent my Sins frequently. One of these days, I am going to put my guns in the ground. I have my Crosses, Bible and Holy Water. My interests have shifted to other things.

One of my strong beliefs is that if we were unable to fix something here on Earth, we have all of eternity to fix it on the Other Side. If it's meant to be fixed. And... If I even Want to fix something. As far as a natural death goes...Today is a good day To Die.

My wife and I have made our final arrangements. I am very happy about that. Most everything is behind me now.

That is a really nice feeling.
I really can't wait to go and see what lies beyond the veil. In The Afterlife...

Thank you for reading.
Sincerely...

KenR Jr.
Cryptic Thanatologist

"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity."
Edgar Allan Poe...

I am a former police officer, now physically disabled and retired. My gravestone will probably be inscribed, to signify my rank as a Chief of Police. For many years, I was also working outdoors with trees and firewood.

I have been writing and editing my Bio for quite a long time. I think that it is nearly finished now.

Over the last 6 months especially, more than one Doctor has told me that I am in trouble with my health. I have closed my initial works which included managing 120 Thousand memorials on this website. I share this account with my wife, Cathy Rudat. My life is quiet now. We live our life without interruptions. It's a Beautiful Thing.

My Type 2 Diabetes diagnosis happened approximately 14 years ago. I remember the phone call from my Doctor and I was thinking that this was No Big Deal. Boy was I wrong bc Diabetes is a killer. I know that now. During the last 6 months, my Doctor's have added cancer and also failing eyesight problems. The eyesight issues are related to the Diabetes.

I Accept my Doctors at their word and I was always one to Embrace Death. I am Disconnected from society so this is not going to be a difficult thing, for me. I have already eliminated most people from my life. That is also a Beautiful Thing.

One of my childhood friends just died and that bothered me. I created a memorial for him. I had previously created a memorial for his brother and their Mom And Dad.

Some of the interests during my life...they included deer hunting and the paranormal. The sport was really good to me. The day came however, when I decided to take only my camera into the woods. I was fine with that. It was the beginning of my transition into this last phase of my life.

With regard to the paranormal... I know what I have seen and heard. This is something that has been with me for a long time. I have an awareness to some types of things. There are things out there that we don't know about and there are things out there that we don't want to know about. Some of the cryptids such as Dogman...there is something to it.

I must add that on more than one occasion, I have experienced some things that I really can't explain. Several things were going on around me at the same time. I probably should have been scared but I was also trying to stay in the moment and figure out What Was Happening. There is a difference between Ghosts and Spirits. Some of them are Ancient.

These writings are the basis for my Find a Grave memorial. I will Never have an Obituary in any newspaper. I think that they are mostly all the same. They list the person's job and that he or she was Beloved. Please. Once in awhile, those obituaries are lengthy and beautiful. They don't tell everything, such as the mother was dark and abusive.

I have been involved with geneology, although I have been somewhat distracted with the business of dying and I am taking a break.

Please visit the the memorial for my good friend and police partner Sergeant Tim Geritz (# 143057630.) We saw some stuff together. I'm not kidding about that.

I know about Blood and Killing and Death.
It was my Business.
I know about Karma.

When I was a young man, with some chaos going on in my life, I saw the narcissism in my dysfunctional family/and Others. Their sociopathic and psychopathic behaviors prepared me to do what I needed to do, even to this day.

My father once told me that he said Goodbye to his brother at age 16. I never forgot that and I Also said Goodbye to my brother at age 16. That's how things go.

It wouldn't be right if I didn't acknowledge all of the women who came into my life, after my divorce. I will never forget them.

Please...Be Humble and Be Kind.
For those who are not, Here are The Warnings...

Some people believe that there is something out there called Santería. It can really disrupt/change the life of people who have treated others with misery and contempt. It can take something or someone from you. A person's profession or money doesn't matter. It won't save you. The lady surgeon is no different than the music teacher. The surgeon learned about Karma. Some say that it was about how she treated other people. Others believe that the cuban priest performed a ritual. Screaming in the Night. Some people call this Supernatural Justice.

The original Flatliners film, and The Serpent and The Rainbow... they are some examples about the importance of treating people Right and with Respect. Bad things will otherwise happen.

There are some people on this Earth who are dangerous. And then there are those Idiots who (want-to-be) But they can't shoot etc. I once saw someone track a deer backwards and then denied it. He also got smacked in the eye with the rifle scope. He had to live with the black ring around his eye. I never allowed him to hunt with me after that. He was unable to practice gun safety.

I have known some dangerous men.
It was my business.

My Life...

I have lived my life as A Rebel and A Defender of The Faith. When you know that you are right...you stand your ground and Never back down. I am proud to have adjusted some attitudes during my life. I have always detested those who are manipulative. People always knew where they stood with me, And I Fear No Man.

Moving On...

I am now a very spiritual person. I was brought up in the Protestant church. My parents forced it upon us. I took all of the necessary instruction and then became a confirmed member of the church. The end result of that, I Chose To Leave.

Martin Luther and I would have been good Drinking Buddies however. I have been tempted to Nail my own Theses on the bright Red Doors. I made sure that my daughter was Baptized as an Infant, just as I was.

I pray directly to Jesus now.

My personal relationship with Jesus Christ was already in place, long before my diagnosis. I glorify Jesus both in Good times and also when things are Bad. I know where I have been and I know where I am going. I can't wait to go. Don't look for me bc I have always been A Loner. It's about the solitude. My belief is that what awaits me... it's described in the 23rd Psalm. Its a feeling of Peace. I am excited about Leaving this Earth. I will do whatever it is, that Jesus permits or what He wants me to do. I thank Him every day for my life and what He did for me.

I have really tried to mellow out. It wasn't easy bc of the actions of others. I compare those actions to things such as Mercy and Forgiveness. I struggle with that. It's okay because I am here on this Earth to learn specific lessons. It's for the progression of my soul. I think about my Faith in Jesus and Salvation.

One of the last things that my Dad told me to do, was To Repent. I took his advice and I Repent my Sins frequently. One of these days, I am going to put my guns in the ground. I have my Crosses, Bible and Holy Water. My interests have shifted to other things.

One of my strong beliefs is that if we were unable to fix something here on Earth, we have all of eternity to fix it on the Other Side. If it's meant to be fixed. And... If I even Want to fix something. As far as a natural death goes...Today is a good day To Die.

My wife and I have made our final arrangements. I am very happy about that. Most everything is behind me now.

That is a really nice feeling.
I really can't wait to go and see what lies beyond the veil. In The Afterlife...

Thank you for reading.
Sincerely...

KenR Jr.
Cryptic Thanatologist